Dearest Fuller,
We’ve had a long and I would argue, beneficial relationship so far. So, to show my appreciation I wanted to give you a picture. I must tell you though, this picture does come laden with exhaustion and some frustration. For you see, lately this relationship has felt very one sided.
Don’t think I’m not appreciative of your gift of a paycheck, twice a month, or the tuition remission of 60% for one class a quarter or even the other benefits you provide (now that I’m full time of course). I value these items very much. But to be honest, that is why I lovingly tolerate my lower than standard pay. I understand that healthy relationships are both a give and take. Besides, I truly believe in your mission, and most times, am proud to be a part of it.
Lately though, something about you has changed. Your distant, cold, so caught up in your own idea of work, that you forgot we are a team. I try to pretend you didn’t mean it the other day when you said you just didn’t have time to care about me. Or that time you suggested that you put up with us because the board said to. I know you didn’t mean that. How about the fact you’ve never once stopped by my office to see what it is that I actually do? Or that time, you tried to cut down my workload by completely eradicating customer service and putting my office in that very large closet in the back of the library. I appreciate the extra space, but I don’t think you understood what I meant when I said I had too much of a work load…
So, let me tell you why I am sending you this picture. This picture is a symbol of why this relationship is important to me and what needs to change if it’s gonna work.
I wanted to show what I’ve been doing for 156 hours of the last 3 weeks that I’ve spent at work since you cut my department down to one. Granted, it was only two people to begin with, but remember, that was 80 hours a week of work now being given to one 40 hour position. Lucky for you, I am really good at what I do and am really fast and dedicated. Could you imagine if I didn’t care about my job? Whew! Fullers image would crumble and no one would have access to media. You could have a short tryst with students as you once carelessly suggested, but let’s be honest, their work is not as professional or as satisfying as mine. And then, with new students coming in and out of your life all the time, who would lovingly store your memories for you?
All in all, I just want to remind you that I care about our relationship and want only the best. I am certain we can come to some kind of understanding, both of us being adults, but want to be straight in saying that giving because I love is one thing. Giving continuously while being ignored will only last so long before the relationship needs to end. Let’s not let it get to that. I know we are meant for better things than misunderstanding.
With loving respect, your video department.
